I would be happy

I would be happy...

My mind wonders back to a gentler day and time
As I trace the memories of you in my mind
When I use to call you mine

Holding on to the feelings that gave us this start
Hoping that we would never part
This one true love that I thought I would forever keep

Now, as this darkness consumes me
All I have is this pain residing within
A pain that I dare not others see

Every night, on my knees I weep
I cry for the secrets I would forever keep
That you my love, hurts me too deep

As the days falls down from the pages of time
I live every second ... I live with fear
That one day you could no longer hear

One day, my tears would stop falling
One day, my soul would stop mourning
One day, my heart would stop bleeding

Standing still, I am waiting to end my strife
I would be happy to lose my life
If it would mean the end of my cries...

D'sDrippingmind
7th of May 2009

This barren face.. this empty soul

This barren face... this empty soul

In this hidden shadow of my soul
Deep inside I hide this obscure pain
That is lurking within my inner core
Taking most of me as if it's home

I dare not seek where the light is to beacon me
For it would only reveal what is hiding under
The blanketing sadness of the past
A child's nightmare of rejection

The pain of the past
Is still haunting my present
The mirror begs my reflection
Reflection of the naked truth

Who refuses to view with down turned eyes
For there is nothing else to look forward to
I have viewed beyond cold life
And wasted the time living in a shattered world

I am here, inside my secret garden
Filled with false dreams, filled with false hopes
Pushing away those, my heart that keep guarding
I know, all of my love, all of me seems useless

Let me know there is still reason to live
Let me feel that there is still warmth
Coming from the future
To warm my heart... to comfort my soul

DsDrippingmind
6th of May 2009